Overdue Update

I am so sorry it has taken so very long for me to post an update. I hadn’t realized how long it’s been. Time flies!

1. Rosalie (Rosie) Joy was born April 10, 2014 via c-section. She was 8lb 1oz and 21 3/4 in long. My beautiful baby is now 12 weeks old. I had been praying for a vbac, but she was breech. After trying all the flipping positions, chiropractic adjustment, and an external cephalic version, Dr. M decided for whatever reason she was not turning and at 7 days away from my due date, I was all baby and she was out of room. So 2 days later we went in for a section. It was pretty rough because Rosie was breech, twisted, and hung up in my abdominal muscles. My doctor had to extend my previous scar and cut some of my muscle in order to get her out. Aside from that struggle it was an amazing, family centered birth experience. I was able to hold her immediately and have her with me in recovery and nurse. I am so thankful for my doctor and the amazing nurses I had who fought for me to have the experience I did. Rosie now sits up with help, jabbers all the time, gives the sweetest smiles, eats cereal and 1st foods. We adore her!

2. Sassy is an amazing big sister! She is so proud of Baby Rosie.

3. Homeschool continued on after Rosie came. It was a change, but we made it through. We are still doing some work during the summer. And there may be a big announcement coming soon about this. Stay tuned!

4. We love our new home!! The space we have here is awesome. It is so nice to be able to have the whole family over with plenty of space.

5. A few months ago we lost our sweet Dachshund, Ginger. We miss her every single day. Bolt missed her a lot the first couple days, but is doing much better. It was very sad for us, and very sudden and unexpected. That sweet girl had been through a lot in her life.

6. Since having Rosie I have had no more pcos issues/symptoms. I hope that this will continue. I have been working to maintain a healthy and active lifestyle, which is a huge help for those with pcos. I gained about 12-15 pounds with this last pregnancy, and lost about 25 pounds in the first 6 weeks postpartum. I was thrilled with that!

Hope, Faith, Miracles, and Blessings

Never doubt the ability of God to do great things.  Even in the most seemingly hopeless of times.  God has worked wonders and miracles in me, as well as my family in recent months.

A few weeks ago Coach and I both had grandmothers in the hospital, at the same time.  One had colonitis and pneumonia, along side some issues with her pace maker.  The other had gone in for a stress test due to some issues she had been having.  After the stress test she had what seemed to be a seizure and lost all ability to speak.  To make a long story short, one grandmother got out of ICU and greatly improved enough to go home in a day, while at the very same time, the other was completely healed.  My grandmother who had lost her ability to speak was suddenly able to speak without any issues.  The doctor came in with results stating that she did not have seizure, there was no sign of stroke, and that she was perfectly healthy.  Truly a miracle!

I personally have experienced the majestic powers of God.  As you know, I suffer from PCOS (Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome).  So many of you have prayed for me concerning this for months, and even years, as Coach and I have tried to have more children and considered all roads to get us to that point.  As you know, a few months ago we switched doctors and got some real answers and a real plan.  The plan was to begin taking clomid in August, for approximately three months, in an attempt to get pregnant.  If that proved to be unsuccessful, the plan was to see our local fertility expert and begin IUI.  In July we had our prescription filled for the clomid and waited for the day to arrive that I could begin taking it.  We decided that month that we would just take things easy and stop planning everything because the next 6-12 months would hold a sort of schedule for our lives like we have never experienced before.  So, we did.  Of course in order to start the clomid we had to wait for my cycle to start.  We waited….and waited.  Nothing.  For about the last year I’ve been pretty regular, so this was odd, but when you have PCOS, nothing is ever odd for you.  Coach kept asking if he could get me a pregnancy test, and I kept saying no, it would happen in a few days.  Time passed on and still nothing.  Finally Coach said he would get a test so at least if it was negative (which I knew it would be…they always were) I could have the doctor call in the medicine I needed to make my cycle start so we could start with the clomid.  I agreed; told him to just get the $1.00 test from the Dollar Store (that’s what the Dr. office uses anyhow) because there was no sense in wasting more money on tests.  I mean at this point I’m wishing I would have taken out stock in pregnancy tests.  (lol)  So, he gets the test and I take it…..totally expecting the usual negative because it is ALWAYS negative.  I mean I hadn’t had a positive test since I had Sassy…and she is six and a half years old.  Well, immediately it said….POSITIVE!  I looked again…still positive.  I called Coach, held it out and asked, “Does this say positive?”.  Coach looked at it, looked at the box, back at the test, then at me and said, “Yup!”.  We were so shocked!  I didn’t really believe it.  I called my nurse the next morning and got on the schedule to get a blood serum pregnancy test done.  She called the next day to confirm that I was indeed pregnant.  I had my step-mom do an ultrasound to make sure everything was okay.  The ultrasound showed a perfect little fetal pole and heartbeat.  I was approximately six weeks at that time.  We were scheduled for our first OB visit three weeks later.  Last Monday we went to the Dr. and had an ultrasound done there as well, and I am happy to report that everything looked perfect.  We are currently about 10 weeks along!  Can you believe it!?!  If you’ve been following our journey, you know that this is nothing short of a miracle.  I can not even begin to tell you how blessed we feel.  I have been amazed to see how God has used my story, and I know that he will continue to use our story.  For months I have seen my ovaries lie dormant, full of cysts, and now here I am carrying a child.  Beyond amazing!  So please if you, or anyone you know suffers from PCOS, or any other form of infertility, please let them know there is hope.  All you can do is educate yourself on your condition, eat as clean a diet as you can, exercise, and fully trust and rely on God.  God has a plan and story for each of us.  God is so good!

Through this journey, Coach and I learned that we are called to adopt.  We do not have any immediate plans, but in the future we will adopt a child, or children, depending on what God calls us to do.  No matter how God builds your family and blesses you with parenthood, it is a blessing and it is your story, destined for you by God.

Thank you for all of your prayers and support!  We are blessed!

P.S. – We are under contract on a home and have inspection tomorrow!  We are so excited and blessed by all that is happening in our lives right now.

Prayer Requests:

  • Our pregnancy to be healthy and result in a healthy baby
  • My health in order to have a successful VBAC
  • Cenla MOPS (just had our 1st meeting)
  • MOPS Convention coming up in October and our travel there and back
  • Families battling fertility problems
  • Coach’s grandmother (at home ill with another issue, but recovering)
  • My grandfather, who has been diagnosed with cancer
  • Home Inspection Friday
  • Teachers, Parents, and Children….Common Core Issues

And so it begins….

Yesterday was my doctor’s appointment where I expected get my lab results from my 3 and 21 day tests, and put together a ‘get another Kees baby’ plan.  When I arrived the lady told me she was not back from surgery but I could see the nurse practitioner.  I explained my situation and we agreed I could see her and she could relay the info for me.  Great!  I was bummed for sure, but it was better than nothing.  Once I was taken back for vitals, the ladies recognized me and asked if I just wanted to wait for her to make it back.  I was up for it.  (That’s how much I’m in the office btw..LOL!)  The nurse took me back for vitals and explained that the surgery was very lengthy and started very late, I could wait or reschedule because the Dr. definitely wanted to talk to me.  We decided to reschedule.

So, this morning I headed back to the doctor’s office; which was packed.  After about a 40 minute wait, the nurse took me back for vitals and told me she didn’t want me to get discouraged, the Dr. was in L&D, but should be back soon because they had been pushing for about an hour.  No problem!  About three minutes later the Dr. called and told her they had just finished and she was on her way back up.  Yay!  It was about ten minutes later that she made it to my room.  She asked how everything was going, I told her my cycles were regular (for someone with PCOS), I had dropped 37lbs, and many of the symptoms were gone or going away.  I did tell her I had recently had ultrasounds that showed both ovaries were full of cysts, as expected.  I explained to her the OPK’s were giving me false positives (normal for women with PCOS), and that I had 1 good month of a normal basal temp. chart, but everything else was completely erratic (also normal for PCOS).  She said stop wasting the money on OPK’s and don’t stress over basal temp. charting.  I asked her health/diet wise what I should be doing because I’ve read a million things as to what to take/eat/etc.  I’ve heard do a low GI diet, I’ve heard no dairy and no gluten.  You name it…I’ve heard it.  She said do the low GI diet (b/c I had explained I had hit that inevitable wall), and to do nothing else….the diet and normal exercise, and continue my metformin.  Easy!  I can do that!  She then told me she was going to start me on clomid next month.  It would be a low dose, and probably would not work, but you never know.  Once I do the 21 day and we do not see ovulation, she will up the mg for the next month.  We will attempt this method for 3-4 months.  If this doesn’t work, we will be off to see Dr. Storment.  I def. left satisfied and happy to have a plan.  What a blessing!

So please be in prayer for our family over the next few months, as well as for me and my body.  I am praying for more success on the weight loss front, and a continuation of regular cycles so that I am able to take the medications correctly.  I am also praying for this journey financially because just the meds and 21 day test each month will cost us about $175 or more.  Should we need IUI, we are talking much more.  Def. not an extra cost anyone ever expects, but we know that God is faithful to always see us through.  And of course we are praying for a baby!  

 

Thank you to all of those who keep up with our family and your continued prayer and support.  We could not do this without the love and support of all of our friends and family.  God Bless!

The Infamous Fork in the Road

Do you ever wish God would just write the answer down to the ‘big’ question you’ve been asking him, wrap it up all pretty and have it delivered to your doorstep?  That’s pretty much where I am right now.  I feel as if I am literally standing at the infamous fork in the road; I can go left, or I can go right, but I can’t go back.  Do you know how frustrating that is!?

I’m blessed enough to have a family member who does ultrasounds for a living.  So, for the past couple of weeks I’ve had ultrasounds to see what my ovaries are up to.  Can I just tell you….they are up to NO GOOD!  Both have a bunch of tiny cysts, and there is no sign of a dominant follicle.  For a couple of weeks now, things in the reproductive area have been dormant.  Literally!  There has been no change at all, and I am a week late.  That might be TMI, but that’s where the truth lies.  I realize for those of us with PCOS, irregularity is ‘normal’, but you have to understand for me…being late is so not normal, especially since I’ve been so regular for the past 8 to 10 months.  So I don’t know what is going on!  I’m just keeping on keeping on.  Still doing my normal exercising, eating right, taking my meds., etc.  Over the past couple of weeks, Coach and I have talked a lot (between the two of us and with family), about what we are open to fertility treatment wise and what insurance will cover (which is basically nothing).  Coach is really feeling led to give a few “simplier” fertility options a shot.  (I say simplier VERY lightly!  If you know much about fertility treatments, you know there really isn’t such a thing as a simple fertility treatment option.)  However, we are torn by the reminder that it is costly and not guaranteed to work.  On the other hand, I realized that although I’ve always had PCOS, I never had any of the symptoms/problems until after I had gotten pregnant with Sassy and gained all the weight I’ve been packing around (which greatly effects PCOS).  So I feel like if I can just keep battling through the weight loss, maybe I can get the symptoms to subside enough to get pregnant again.  Having PCOS makes weight loss extrememly difficult, but not impossible.  So, the road to my left leads to a path of fertility treatments.

What’s the other road?  Well, adoption of course.  We know we want to adopt at some point, and feel led to pursue adoption once we get settled into our next home.  So my prayer has been for God to reveal to us whether he desires us to go left, and pursue more fertility options, or to go right and just wait for the right time to pursue an adoption.  Truth be told….I’m wanting both.  However, I realize that pursuing both over the course of the next year may not be God’s will.  And we want to follow God’s will.  We’ve learned that our will never works out, but God’s way is always right.  So please feel free to pray along side us as we seek God’s will in growing our family.

Thanks for all of your prayers, good thoughts, and support!  We appreciate you!

On a happier note…..we leave for the beach in only 9 days!!!!   (Maybe a good vacation will help clear our minds and open our hearts to be able to recieve God’s answer.)

New Hope

A little over a week ago I called my doctor’s office and switched doctors in office.  I hated to do it because I did really like the doctor I had, but if you’ve kept up with the blog or know my family well, you know the issues I’ve had and the problems we’ve had getting pregnant.  It was to the point that I felt my doctor just didn’t know what to do with me.  He didn’t know how to help me.  So, we felt it was time to make a change; he wasn’t delivering babies anymore anyhow.  I decided to switch to a new doctor who had just come into the office.  I had heard a lot of good things about her and she is young and has had experience with infertilty on a personal level.

I was really nervous about switching and what she would have to say about our situation, but I went ahead and scheduled a consult with her to get to know her and to share our struggle and get her take on our PCOS problem.  Since the birth of my daughter, who turns 6 in 9 days, I have never left my doctor’s office with more hope concerning my disease.  She gave me more answers in 30 minutes than I’ve had in four years.  Basically, she said were on the right track with the way we were doing things, the weight I’ve lost, and the meds I’ve been on, but I needed to be taking a higher dosage of my medication.  She immediately corrected this for me.  She also informed me to call and schedule a hormone panel within the next couple of weeks when the time was right, and told us to give the good ole OPK’s another try since I’ve made so much progress the last few months.  My husband and I were thrilled to hear her say that my disease/condition (I hate calling it a disease, but that’s what she says it is.) is totally controlable and as we were leaving she said, “It’s gunna happen.  We’re going to get a baby!”.  I’ve never gotten so much positive feedback from my doctors, nor so much hope for our future.  We are excited to get things going, but we are more excited to finally be on the right track.

When I first suspected I had PCOS I was afraid I would never have more children unless I had thousands of dollars to spend on treatment or adoption.  Which, by the way, I do not have!  I wish I did that that much money so that I could adopt a child, but that isn’t an option right now.  When my doctor confirmed my suspicion of the disease I felt a bit alone.  I didn’t know of anyone who had ever dealt with this disease.  Heck, I didn’t even know of anyone who had dealt with fertility issues.  I felt like I couldn’t talk about what we were going through.  God soon brought quite a few people into my life who did understand what I was going through, and it felt so good to be able to talk to other women about their journey with infertility.  That’s why I share about my journey on our blog.  To let women out there know they can talk about it; there is nothing wrong with them.  Infertility is really tough, but there is hope and there are people who understand.  I had no clue I had PCOS until I went to my doctor after the birth of my daughter, Sassy.  And she was 3 years old then.  It took me a long time to work up the courage to go get checked out because I didn’t want to have a problem.  But I’m so glad today that I did go.  It wasn’t until this week that I found out I’ve always had PCOS, I just never knew it.  I was under the impression that it just appeared after having my first child.  I mean she was a surprise to say the least, and I had never had any problems until I got pregnant.  But I learned this week that PCOS just doesn’t appear; it’s something your born with.  I was apparently born with it and the weight gain during my pregnancy just brought it out.  Which made me realize that the conception of my daughter was somewhat of a miracle.  I believe every conception is a miracle, but apparently she was definitely one.  Many times I’ve told people that in a way she saved me…well…saved us.  (I’ll get into that another day.) But what an eye opener to realize that I’ve always suffered from a disease that makes it close to impossible to get pregnant, and the child that so many people in today’s world would have called “a mistake” or an “uh-oh” was just a mile marker on our journey under God’s incredible plan for our lives.  That’s why I have so much hope for our future in terms of growing our family.  I know God is in control!  He has an amazing plan for me and my family!

 

This certaily isn’t one of my most organized posts for you, but I felt it was important to share with you as soon as I could.  Thanks to all those who have been praying for us in this area.  I know that God hears those prayers, and we greatly appreciate your support.  We have some awesome friends and family!

God Bless!

 

Doctors Orders

I went to see Dr. T. today.  I’m sure he is getting tired of seeing me in there, honestly.  After the exam he told me that I definitely don’t have anything major going on.  Praise the Lord!  I do have PCOS, so he felt certain the issues I was having was a result of that…most likely being a cyst.  I’ve had this for quite some time, but this would be the first time I’ve had an actual cyst, as I have more of biochemical form of PCOS.  He told me to continue in what I was doing, take 10 days of Provera, and about a week later start birth control.  Not exactly what I had hoped to hear.  To be totally honest, I’m not much on birth control.  I took it for a few months after I had my daughter, and I didn’t like it.  I didn’t feel like me.  I tried two diff. types and then I called it quits.  I also don’t like birth control because I feel like it puts any possible pregnancy at risk.  Many babies have been lost because women got pregnant while on birth control, and didn’t know they were pregnant.  However, I do realize that I don’t ovulate, so that isn’t really as big an issue as it otherwise would be I guess.  I honestly am struggling on this.   I’m pretty sure I will go ahead with the doctor’s orders and take it because ultimately what’s going on has to be stopped.  It just can’t continue.  Taking the birth control may also give my hormones the chance to balance out a bit more, helping me to lose more weight, which would really help solve a lot of the PCOS issues.  This is a tough road for us to travel because we are so ready to have another baby and we don’t want to do anything to jeopardize those chances…small as they may be.  So, we are just going to go with the flow and continue praying that the Lord lead us down the path to one day bless us again.  We also feel it is important that I be as healthy as possible and my body be fully able to carry a baby before we get pregnant.  That is going to take a lot of discipline on my end, but I know I can do it.  Once we get moved to the new place I plan on starting weight watchers…just without the program.  I’m also considering joining a local gym.  So it looks like I’ll be getting back to my salads, smoothies, and low-fat life-style again soon.  And I’m actually kind of excited about it.  Don’t worry…you know me…I’ll be blogging all about it!

Thanks for all  the prayers and good thoughts today!  Have a Happy Turkey Day!  Only 2 more days!