It’s not worth crying over spilt milk…or is it?!

Before our little Rosie was even conceived I had plans of breastfeeding. I had heard horror stories of mastitis and thrush, and well…you name it. Regardless of all those stories (which did worry me), I held strong to my desire. Sassy was a formula baby, and turned out fine..healthy as a horse. I was young, working, and in school with a full load of classes so I didn’t give breastfeeding her the first thought. With Rosie it was all just the opposite. I had great plans of breastfeeding, ordered the best pump, bought all the milk storage bags, and nursing gear you could ever imagine needing. I was ready! WRONG!!! I never could have imagined all the issues I would face in breastfeeding. My baby is three months old and I’m lucky to be able to get her a bottle a day pumping. My supply took a hard hit months ago and I’ve struggled building it back since. One night I had just finished pumping before bed and accidentally knocked over the bottle of milk. My husband giggled and I just looked up in tears. It was funny, but when you struggle to produce so little, it’s also really sad. He quickly helped me clean up and assured me that I was doing great and any breast milk is better than none. So I’m here to tell you ladies that if you ever struggle with breastfeeding, you are not alone. You rock! It’s ok to cry over that spilt milk, heck it’s like liquid gold really! Keep up the good work and if/when you choose to stop breastfeeding/pumping it’s ok; you are an amazing mother. And if never opt to breastfeeding a single child, you are an amazing mother. Your worth is not found in how you choose to feed your baby.

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Overdue Update

I am so sorry it has taken so very long for me to post an update. I hadn’t realized how long it’s been. Time flies!

1. Rosalie (Rosie) Joy was born April 10, 2014 via c-section. She was 8lb 1oz and 21 3/4 in long. My beautiful baby is now 12 weeks old. I had been praying for a vbac, but she was breech. After trying all the flipping positions, chiropractic adjustment, and an external cephalic version, Dr. M decided for whatever reason she was not turning and at 7 days away from my due date, I was all baby and she was out of room. So 2 days later we went in for a section. It was pretty rough because Rosie was breech, twisted, and hung up in my abdominal muscles. My doctor had to extend my previous scar and cut some of my muscle in order to get her out. Aside from that struggle it was an amazing, family centered birth experience. I was able to hold her immediately and have her with me in recovery and nurse. I am so thankful for my doctor and the amazing nurses I had who fought for me to have the experience I did. Rosie now sits up with help, jabbers all the time, gives the sweetest smiles, eats cereal and 1st foods. We adore her!

2. Sassy is an amazing big sister! She is so proud of Baby Rosie.

3. Homeschool continued on after Rosie came. It was a change, but we made it through. We are still doing some work during the summer. And there may be a big announcement coming soon about this. Stay tuned!

4. We love our new home!! The space we have here is awesome. It is so nice to be able to have the whole family over with plenty of space.

5. A few months ago we lost our sweet Dachshund, Ginger. We miss her every single day. Bolt missed her a lot the first couple days, but is doing much better. It was very sad for us, and very sudden and unexpected. That sweet girl had been through a lot in her life.

6. Since having Rosie I have had no more pcos issues/symptoms. I hope that this will continue. I have been working to maintain a healthy and active lifestyle, which is a huge help for those with pcos. I gained about 12-15 pounds with this last pregnancy, and lost about 25 pounds in the first 6 weeks postpartum. I was thrilled with that!

Quick Update

I figure it is due time for a little update on life around the Kees household.

1. I will be 19 weeks along this Tuesday, and our little girl is doing great!  I go on the 26th for my anatomy ultrasound, which is where they check to make sure she has all the right parts in all the right places.  I’m confident all is well!  So far, pregnancy has been wonderful!  I have not had any problems!  That is a huge blessing!

2. Hopefully, after many months, we will be closing on our new home this Wednesday!  Of course things always go wrong, so please don’t think I am counting my chickens before they hatch here.  That is the current plan, and we are praying it happens that way, and that soon.

3. Kees Academy is on break at the moment due to the move.  During break we do anything educational, anytime we can.  It might be having a random math lesson one day, and working on reading three days later.  Sometimes I just go with whatever Sassy may have questions about…she asks, I answer, research with her, and check out books on the subject for her.  So let me just say school (and life) have been a bit interesting lately.

4. Coach is now in basketball season.  I am not sure if this is good or bad at the moment.  Football season is wrapping up, so that means the amount of time he is away to referee has greatly decreased, which we like.  However, the first week of basketball season, we only saw the man 1 day!  This week they have their 5-day long tournament.  Yes, that is correct…it is FIVE days long!!  The up side is that we will see him every single day because we will be working the concession stand.  Yes, (hopefully) all while moving to a new home.  Crazy busy, but isn’t God good!!

Please forgive me for not posting more often for you!  As you can somewhat see…it’s been a little crazy.  We love every minute of our crazy though!  Once we get settled into our new place I plan to post a lot more often!  So…something for us all to look forward to!

Thanks for reading!!

Hope, Faith, Miracles, and Blessings

Never doubt the ability of God to do great things.  Even in the most seemingly hopeless of times.  God has worked wonders and miracles in me, as well as my family in recent months.

A few weeks ago Coach and I both had grandmothers in the hospital, at the same time.  One had colonitis and pneumonia, along side some issues with her pace maker.  The other had gone in for a stress test due to some issues she had been having.  After the stress test she had what seemed to be a seizure and lost all ability to speak.  To make a long story short, one grandmother got out of ICU and greatly improved enough to go home in a day, while at the very same time, the other was completely healed.  My grandmother who had lost her ability to speak was suddenly able to speak without any issues.  The doctor came in with results stating that she did not have seizure, there was no sign of stroke, and that she was perfectly healthy.  Truly a miracle!

I personally have experienced the majestic powers of God.  As you know, I suffer from PCOS (Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome).  So many of you have prayed for me concerning this for months, and even years, as Coach and I have tried to have more children and considered all roads to get us to that point.  As you know, a few months ago we switched doctors and got some real answers and a real plan.  The plan was to begin taking clomid in August, for approximately three months, in an attempt to get pregnant.  If that proved to be unsuccessful, the plan was to see our local fertility expert and begin IUI.  In July we had our prescription filled for the clomid and waited for the day to arrive that I could begin taking it.  We decided that month that we would just take things easy and stop planning everything because the next 6-12 months would hold a sort of schedule for our lives like we have never experienced before.  So, we did.  Of course in order to start the clomid we had to wait for my cycle to start.  We waited….and waited.  Nothing.  For about the last year I’ve been pretty regular, so this was odd, but when you have PCOS, nothing is ever odd for you.  Coach kept asking if he could get me a pregnancy test, and I kept saying no, it would happen in a few days.  Time passed on and still nothing.  Finally Coach said he would get a test so at least if it was negative (which I knew it would be…they always were) I could have the doctor call in the medicine I needed to make my cycle start so we could start with the clomid.  I agreed; told him to just get the $1.00 test from the Dollar Store (that’s what the Dr. office uses anyhow) because there was no sense in wasting more money on tests.  I mean at this point I’m wishing I would have taken out stock in pregnancy tests.  (lol)  So, he gets the test and I take it…..totally expecting the usual negative because it is ALWAYS negative.  I mean I hadn’t had a positive test since I had Sassy…and she is six and a half years old.  Well, immediately it said….POSITIVE!  I looked again…still positive.  I called Coach, held it out and asked, “Does this say positive?”.  Coach looked at it, looked at the box, back at the test, then at me and said, “Yup!”.  We were so shocked!  I didn’t really believe it.  I called my nurse the next morning and got on the schedule to get a blood serum pregnancy test done.  She called the next day to confirm that I was indeed pregnant.  I had my step-mom do an ultrasound to make sure everything was okay.  The ultrasound showed a perfect little fetal pole and heartbeat.  I was approximately six weeks at that time.  We were scheduled for our first OB visit three weeks later.  Last Monday we went to the Dr. and had an ultrasound done there as well, and I am happy to report that everything looked perfect.  We are currently about 10 weeks along!  Can you believe it!?!  If you’ve been following our journey, you know that this is nothing short of a miracle.  I can not even begin to tell you how blessed we feel.  I have been amazed to see how God has used my story, and I know that he will continue to use our story.  For months I have seen my ovaries lie dormant, full of cysts, and now here I am carrying a child.  Beyond amazing!  So please if you, or anyone you know suffers from PCOS, or any other form of infertility, please let them know there is hope.  All you can do is educate yourself on your condition, eat as clean a diet as you can, exercise, and fully trust and rely on God.  God has a plan and story for each of us.  God is so good!

Through this journey, Coach and I learned that we are called to adopt.  We do not have any immediate plans, but in the future we will adopt a child, or children, depending on what God calls us to do.  No matter how God builds your family and blesses you with parenthood, it is a blessing and it is your story, destined for you by God.

Thank you for all of your prayers and support!  We are blessed!

P.S. – We are under contract on a home and have inspection tomorrow!  We are so excited and blessed by all that is happening in our lives right now.

Prayer Requests:

  • Our pregnancy to be healthy and result in a healthy baby
  • My health in order to have a successful VBAC
  • Cenla MOPS (just had our 1st meeting)
  • MOPS Convention coming up in October and our travel there and back
  • Families battling fertility problems
  • Coach’s grandmother (at home ill with another issue, but recovering)
  • My grandfather, who has been diagnosed with cancer
  • Home Inspection Friday
  • Teachers, Parents, and Children….Common Core Issues

Gearing Up & Breaking Down

As I was looking through my homeschool binder earlier I decided to go ahead and rotate my calendar to display August.  My eyes widened….I was stunned!  We are a mere 17 days away from starting our new year!  How can that be??  I mean…I’ve been doing some prep work and planning, getting geared up for a new year, but I am so not ready.  No, seriously…NOT ready!!!  I still have some curriculum to order!  So yes…guess what I get to do next week.  When I realized August 12th was looming very near, I did have a bit of break down inside.  Unfortunately I fear it will not be my last.  I have a lot of work to get done.  A LOT!!  I am thankful that I will not be braving the back to school crowds for supplies again this year, though.  Definitely a perk of homeschooling!  We go get all of our supplies about a two weeks after the public schools start.  Yes, many things are gone by then, but we only need the basics…crayons, markers, glue, etc., and we are able to get them on clearance.  You just can’t beat that!  So the back to school shopping will not cause this mama a break down.  But…the curriculum ordering last minute, and super last minute lesson planning very well may.  I promise I did not intentionally wait this long to get everything done!  Summer just flew by me and August surprised me.  My understanding is that this has happened to many other homeschool families, so…at least we aren’t alone…
 
 
God Bless!! 
 
P.S. – Pray for me!  🙂

And so it begins….

Yesterday was my doctor’s appointment where I expected get my lab results from my 3 and 21 day tests, and put together a ‘get another Kees baby’ plan.  When I arrived the lady told me she was not back from surgery but I could see the nurse practitioner.  I explained my situation and we agreed I could see her and she could relay the info for me.  Great!  I was bummed for sure, but it was better than nothing.  Once I was taken back for vitals, the ladies recognized me and asked if I just wanted to wait for her to make it back.  I was up for it.  (That’s how much I’m in the office btw..LOL!)  The nurse took me back for vitals and explained that the surgery was very lengthy and started very late, I could wait or reschedule because the Dr. definitely wanted to talk to me.  We decided to reschedule.

So, this morning I headed back to the doctor’s office; which was packed.  After about a 40 minute wait, the nurse took me back for vitals and told me she didn’t want me to get discouraged, the Dr. was in L&D, but should be back soon because they had been pushing for about an hour.  No problem!  About three minutes later the Dr. called and told her they had just finished and she was on her way back up.  Yay!  It was about ten minutes later that she made it to my room.  She asked how everything was going, I told her my cycles were regular (for someone with PCOS), I had dropped 37lbs, and many of the symptoms were gone or going away.  I did tell her I had recently had ultrasounds that showed both ovaries were full of cysts, as expected.  I explained to her the OPK’s were giving me false positives (normal for women with PCOS), and that I had 1 good month of a normal basal temp. chart, but everything else was completely erratic (also normal for PCOS).  She said stop wasting the money on OPK’s and don’t stress over basal temp. charting.  I asked her health/diet wise what I should be doing because I’ve read a million things as to what to take/eat/etc.  I’ve heard do a low GI diet, I’ve heard no dairy and no gluten.  You name it…I’ve heard it.  She said do the low GI diet (b/c I had explained I had hit that inevitable wall), and to do nothing else….the diet and normal exercise, and continue my metformin.  Easy!  I can do that!  She then told me she was going to start me on clomid next month.  It would be a low dose, and probably would not work, but you never know.  Once I do the 21 day and we do not see ovulation, she will up the mg for the next month.  We will attempt this method for 3-4 months.  If this doesn’t work, we will be off to see Dr. Storment.  I def. left satisfied and happy to have a plan.  What a blessing!

So please be in prayer for our family over the next few months, as well as for me and my body.  I am praying for more success on the weight loss front, and a continuation of regular cycles so that I am able to take the medications correctly.  I am also praying for this journey financially because just the meds and 21 day test each month will cost us about $175 or more.  Should we need IUI, we are talking much more.  Def. not an extra cost anyone ever expects, but we know that God is faithful to always see us through.  And of course we are praying for a baby!  

 

Thank you to all of those who keep up with our family and your continued prayer and support.  We could not do this without the love and support of all of our friends and family.  God Bless!

One of Sassy’s Favorite Places

One of the fun things we’ve done this summer is visit the Monroe/West Monroe area, where we use to live.  We were up there for a softball tournament, but had some good down time for some fun stuff.  We got to have lunch at one of our favorite places, The Pickle Barrel.  We also got to go show Sassy her old school, Claiborne Christian, and show her where she use to live.  Claiborne is a private school and preschool; she attended Claiborne Christian Preschool.  She really loved that!  We also got to eat dinner with my cousin, his wife, and daughter at one of our main Mexican spots, Chile Verde.  It was so nice getting to see them and catch up on life.  We really miss getting to spend time with them.  One of Sassy’s favorite memories was visiting the Duck Dynasty/Duck Commander Warehouse.  When we lived in West Monroe, we lived right down the road from the warehouse and drove by it every day.  We thought it was cool, but no biggie…they weren’t super-stars back then like they are now.  Of course since they are always on our television we had to go take pictures.
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If you can’t tell…Si is Sassy’s favorite person!  She quotes that man all the time!  She really enjoyed this trip!  She could not stop smiling while at the Commander Warehouse.