It’s not worth crying over spilt milk…or is it?!

Before our little Rosie was even conceived I had plans of breastfeeding. I had heard horror stories of mastitis and thrush, and well…you name it. Regardless of all those stories (which did worry me), I held strong to my desire. Sassy was a formula baby, and turned out fine..healthy as a horse. I was young, working, and in school with a full load of classes so I didn’t give breastfeeding her the first thought. With Rosie it was all just the opposite. I had great plans of breastfeeding, ordered the best pump, bought all the milk storage bags, and nursing gear you could ever imagine needing. I was ready! WRONG!!! I never could have imagined all the issues I would face in breastfeeding. My baby is three months old and I’m lucky to be able to get her a bottle a day pumping. My supply took a hard hit months ago and I’ve struggled building it back since. One night I had just finished pumping before bed and accidentally knocked over the bottle of milk. My husband giggled and I just looked up in tears. It was funny, but when you struggle to produce so little, it’s also really sad. He quickly helped me clean up and assured me that I was doing great and any breast milk is better than none. So I’m here to tell you ladies that if you ever struggle with breastfeeding, you are not alone. You rock! It’s ok to cry over that spilt milk, heck it’s like liquid gold really! Keep up the good work and if/when you choose to stop breastfeeding/pumping it’s ok; you are an amazing mother. And if never opt to breastfeeding a single child, you are an amazing mother. Your worth is not found in how you choose to feed your baby.